| good bye |
[May. 8th, 2004|08:20 pm] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i hate you....by Jacki | ] |
well my bitchy ass step mom who i can't stand is taking away all my online privalages for no reason...no, im not even just saying that, i really couldn't tell you why, so im not going to be doing this anymore..
i would love to fucking hit her so fucking hard in the face...
i can't stand her, i swear to god...
my dad just licks the inside of her ass hole and jumps when she says JUMP....
so bye |
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| lame friday night |
[May. 7th, 2004|09:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Living in your Lettes {Dashboard Confessionals} | ] |
Yes, it is friday night, 9:20, and I know, Im a 17 year old girl, in high school *some of her PRIME years* and im sitting in on a Friday night. WELL that's because i have PHSYCO parents, who i dispise. i swear..im a typical teenager i guess, but i hate when they do stupid shit. i swear they're so freaking crazy, no one elses parents do the gay shit mine do. Parent Connect is the worst thing every invented, and if i ever find the person who made that, i will kill them. I got a 5/10 on a OPINION thing in Florio's class, and since that's techniqually FAILING something, my parents BLESSED me with the curfew of 9:30 for this ENTIRE WEEKEND. 9:30!!!! Well its really my fucking dumb ass step mom. She's such an idiot sometimes. ANYWAYS
I did have a good DAY untill i talked to my parnents. *which is usually the case* I went to the beach with Melissa, her boyfriend David, Ross, and *John*. I got a tan on my butt, and now the tan lines that i have payed 30 to get rid of, are yes...back. That's ok though. Im tan, that's all the matters, right? The beach was fun untill my old friends from Clearwater showed up. All the guys that we were with were getting annoyed with them. Im surprised they just came and sat RIGHT with us, not like, by us, but WITH us. That's kinda rude, we didn't tell them to. I swear sometimes i wonder why i chose the friends i chose before. Well after we left the beach, we went to checkers, and made the pale kid sit in the sun, while us tan people got to sit in the shade. haha. Ross, he's a goof ball. I like him though. He's Davids friend. He was so funny. Some of the things he said were just so funny. JOhn actually knew him from middle school, and they were good friends. So that's cool that he gets along with people i hang out with. I know its kind of weird that im just NOW discovering this after how many months? lol! Johns so awesome, he got me from a really bad mood, to a great one, in like 10 seconds. I question why we're together sometimes, just b/c we're so different, but we'll hang out, and i'll relize why. We had the best time today after the beach. ;)!! I rented sex and the city dvd. WIth 4 episodes on it, and i watched that tonight. That's such a good show, i dont know why thye took it off. And FRIENDS? UAHH!! What am i going to do with out my dose of those guys? Damn..it was good though. Twins, and Ross and Rachel...that's awesome. But i wish it was Joey and Rachel. Ross can get other girls. lol jk why am i thinking about this, they're TV CHARACTERS. wow im a dork. Anyways, im going to go work on my huge english project due this week, on my friday night..ahh..good night~ |
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| today |
[May. 6th, 2004|02:59 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | bouncing off the walls- SUGARCULT | ] |
john and i are getting ready to leave for the MALL and some where else..my cars a peice of shit....and ya my day was boring! bye bye bye! john just took a shit at my house and i think its discusting! haha |
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| Tifffffff's survery.... |
[May. 5th, 2004|02:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | candle in the wind - elton john | ] |
SURVEY:
Name: Jacki
Do you like it?: no
Nicknames: jack, jackdog, jackson
Age: 17
Birthday: MARCH 30
Sign:aires
Location: FL
Status: TAKENN
Crush: John
Virgin?: NO..
Natural hair color: brown
Current hair color: blonde highlighted
Eye color: green
Height: 5'5-5'6
Birthplace: clearwater
Shoe size: 8 1/2
Bra size: 34 B
[ Family ]
Parents: Susan and Sandy *Debbie- stepmom*
Siblings: Gage and Hunter
Live with: sandy and debbie
Favorite relative: annie and taylor
[ Favorites ]
Number: 25
Color: PINK
Day: friday and SATURDAY
Month: June
Song: How does it feel, ocean avenue, too many to name.
Movie(s): dirty dancing
Food: CHINESE, and mcdonalds
Band: new found glory
Season: spring/summer
Sport(s): FOOTBALL
Class: AMERICAN HISTORY
Teacher: Mr. Florio, Mr. Henderson
Drink(s): Banana smoothies, crystal light, koolaid parot bay and pineapple juice
Veggie: mash potatoes
TV Show: Real World, Friends, The OC
Radio Station: 97.1, 95.7, 93.3, 98.7
Store: hollister
Word: cock
Flower: anything tropical
State: cali
[ This Or That ]
Me/You: ME
Coke/pepsi: pepsi
Day/night: NIGHT
Aol/aim: AIM
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: DVD
Jeans/khakis: JEANS
Tall/short: tall
Lunch/dinner: DINNER
NSYNC/BSB: NEITHER
Britney/Christina: britney foo shoo...
Gap/Old Navy: GAP
Lipstick/Lipgloss: LIPGLOSS
Silver/Gold: SILVER
Alcohol/Weed:alcohol
[ Love and Relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: YES
Do you have a crush?: HE IS MY CRUSH.
How long have you liked him/her?:dunno
If you're single...why are you single?: IM NOT HAHA
How long was your longest relationship?: 2 months...haha
How long was your shortest relationship?:2 periods in middle school
[ The Past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your life: i wouldn't be so fat, and i would have done better in school
What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: chris parker
Last thing you heard: Prince: I just want your extra touch and your KISS
Last thing you saw: kazaa
Last thing you said: i dont care
Who is the last person you saw?: John
Who is the last person you kissed?: John
Who is the last person you hugged?: John
Who is the last person you fought with?: John
What is the last song you heard?: When your gone - Hanson
[ The Present ]
What are you wearing?: johns cooter shirt and white cheer shorts
What are you doing?: THIS SURVEY
Who are you talking to?: myself
What song are you listening to?: when your gone - hanson
Where are you?: backroom
Who are you with?: MYSELF.
Are you online?: UH, YEA.
How are you feeling?: hungry as usual
Are you in a chatroom?: helll no
[ Future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: THURSDAY
What are you going to do after this?:go to work
Who are you going to talk to?:melissa or lauren
Where are you going to go?: TO work :(
How old will you be when you graduate?:18
What do you wanna be?: SEX THERAPIST
Where will you be in 25 years?: WORKING MY GREAT JOB AS A GOD DAMN MILF.
[ Have You Ever ]
Drank?: OH YES.
Smoked?:YES
Had sex?: YES
Stolen?: ya a braclet
Done anything illegal?:OF COURSE.
Wanted to die?: YES
Hit someone?: YES
[ Other ]
Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: RIGHTY
What is your sexual preference?: john
What piercings do you have?: belly
Do you have glasses or braces?:both! lol im a huge dork
Did you like this survey?: ITS OKAY
[ Physical Appearance ]
What do you most like about your body?: EYES
And least?: big ass, fat everything
How many fillings do you have?: ?? 2??
Do you think you're good looking?: im not ugly but im not "holy shit shes so goregous"
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: yes
Do you look like any celebrities?: i dont think so but im told i look like the olsen twins mixed with katie holms
[ Fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: YEA
How many coats and jackets do you own?: i dont know..
Favorite pants/skirt color?: THE COLOR?? jean
Most expensive item of clothing: coach bag 235
Most treasured?: ?
What kind of shoes do you wear?: reefs
Describe your style in one word:wanna be surfer (lol)
That was fun....now i better get back to work... |
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| ??Love?? |
[May. 2nd, 2004|09:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | what would you say-dave mathews band | ] |
Love- A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
Sexual passion.
Sexual intercourse.
A love affair.
An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment
Thats how webster defines love.
I watched a movie today, called "Somethings Gotta Give" With Diane Keaton, and Jack Nicholson. It was a really good movie, I liked it alot. But it got my thinking. What is love? People say, being a independent women is the best way. Being able to be yourself and only rely on yourself, don't give into men, all they do is lie, lie, cheat, and lie. Well, some say you live to love. and better to love and get hurt, then to never love at all. Well?? That's hard to say. I know im a die-hard fairy tale, romantic. In my life, if i don't call in love, then my life was a waste. Im seriously such a dork when it comes to love. Sometimes i'll look at john and think, wow it's possible that i could fall in love with him. That scared the freakin SHIT out of me. I want to be in love so bad, ya know? BUT the word love scares me to death. How can someone be so confused, but yet know what you want? I kind of want to go to a physco-theripist to see if they could figure me out. Just to know, what goes on in my mind, b/c seriously half the time i dont know either, it's weird though. maybe i get confused b/c my parents were in "love" and then my mom and dad got divorced. Well i dont know. maybe its not that...maybe its bc im scared if i were to fall in love, it wouldn't really be love..and i'd think it was, and i would be convinced that i lost the love of my life. i believe theres really only one person out there, but can you fall in love with more then one person in your lifetime? True love, soul mates, ment to be..all that, it's weird...how can u do that if theres only ONE person right for you? MMmm..i guess thats a question that will never be answered really... |
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| haaa haaa |
[May. 2nd, 2004|02:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yellowcard- Ocean Avenue | ] |
im in 2nd period, and nina, tiffffffffff and i are in the library, making fun of peoples gay ass journals. some people are so stupid, "let's start fights on our live journals.." i just like to read them and make fun of there stupid asses. It's hilarious. This school is so stupid. Today at the end of class im going to put orajel on my lips so when i kiss john his lips go numb and i can laugh at him. :) im hungry. these are times i really wish i had like a genie or something so i could wish for a #1 combo meal at McDonalds...Mmmm...im going to go to Micky D's after school today now... Last night i went to dinner with my family, and they told me that we're going to the keys and john can come *if his dad allows him to* at the end of june, and im going to cocoa this summer, AND in sept. my mom and i are taking a "sex and the city" tribute trip to NYC and pretend we're rich and classy. haha, we're just going to shop and dress all coolish..and spend lots of my dads money. hehe! this stuff excites me..
Oh i hate those stupid fat *and that one little anorexic* girls in my french class. they are so gay. they sing along to the announcment music and theyt hink they're soooo fuckin cool...i wish i could just go up to one of them and hit them in there face, specially that ugly little skinny one...one day, i will, just because i can..fuck that..haha! well im going to go now.. |
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| --ahh..the suspense is over--- |
[Apr. 29th, 2004|10:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | touched | ] |
| [ | music |
| | everytime-britney spears | ] |
ahh...today...it's all over. John is officially the *sighs* perfect boyfriend
when a guy can admit his wrong doings, or his not doing enough ofs, he's absolutly perfect. *of course you must act on them, not just say..and i believe in john* so..i have nothing else to say but i feel better now, and ya..that's all...
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby |
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| heartbreak |
[Apr. 28th, 2004|10:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my immortal...evanescence | ] |
today, i was heartbroken. I was with john, and i said something stupid, and it got him "thinking" He told me he was confused, and had to think. I never thought those words could hurt so much. Im surprised i didn't just break down and cry right there. Before him, i didn't want a relationship, i didn't want something serious, but then he came along and changed everything. He means so much to me, i dont even think he understands. I need someone so strong, and so comforting. now, i feel like a idiot, bc when he's "somethings i think we're so different why are we together" im sitting there thinking "im scared, i could fall in love with him, he's so perfect for me.." THAT'S why i don't do relationships. I ALWAYS GET HURT...thank god we got through that. We sat there for 10 minutes *which sounds like a short time* but when your sitting in someones arms who's re-evaluating your relationship and your fighting back a ton of tears, it feels like forever..we sat in silence. it felt like i had a ton of bricks on my chest, just crushing. everything that was said hurt me so much, i couldn't even handle it, i made him stop. The truth came out. You know that saying "You can't handle the truth" and "the truth hurts" well those are understatments. Im just so happy with john, i couldn't imagin things any different. I love the chase he drags me along, i love how he won't give into society. I envy him. how can someone stand there ground like that. he thinks i think he's a retard, but i think he's so smart, and so *perfect*. I love his stubborness and his headstrong statements. I look up to him in so many ways, and wish i could do something that the wasn't "following the crowd" without being self-concious. John means so much to me it scares me. Im so happy with him though, and im so happy we had that *HeArTbReAkInG* talk, and i know we will both work harder in the relationship to meet eachothers needs, and happieness. :) i dont really feel better but i dont know why, my heart is still broken, its still hurts, when will this feeling go away? ahh...i better go to sleep and try to sleep it off...
love? **scares** |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 19th, 2004|09:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ditzy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | would you wanna be my baby tonight..some country song..lol | ] |
heeeeeyy maaaannn-lol..staci and jacko here...we're just making an entry...because we only have..um-two minutes left of class? yeah right...two minutes. heh-peeace out .
"tops down, chromes spinnin' ya'll know how we be chillin'...GANNNGGSTA.." -Jacki and Staci ;) |
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| Sunny Sunday |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|07:10 pm] |
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Today, I woke up and ate some breakfast. And I did my nails. I talked to my boyfriend John for a while, even though i was pissed we didn't hang out last night, but im over it. Then i went to Laurens house and Melissa's. Lauren and i just screwed around, as usual, and had a blast, as usual also. I dont know it's weird with her b/c i can sit in a empty room with her and we'll end up having a ton of fun b/c we both just find eachother amusing for some reason. Like today, we relized that i only like pop rap, not black rap. HAHA! And Melissa, the tanzinite princess, ALWAYS wants someone to do something for her, but if she were to be asked for something in return, or just in general, she's shocked that someone would even ask her, of she just laughs and says no. But shes the biggest goon ever and i love her. LOL She can NOT slip and slide for her life. All she does is DIVE onto the "slip" of the slide, and slides half way down and just kind of lays there for a second. It's SO funny! I went to the mall and shopped, and didn't find JACK shit. I saw AJ, the hottest kid ever, at Hollister and we talked for like 15 mins. I love that kid. Then i just came home and ate dinner with my parents and listened to my dad lecture me on why cats think with 99% instinct and 1% of memories of being a kitten. He's now a cat-specialist evendently. Idiot, haha. Now we're all gettin ready to eat some pie and ice cream and watch Passions of the Christ *bootleg* version. |
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